HMP LONG LARTIN is a category ‘A’ prison that holds more than 500 male prisoners, including some of the country’s most dangerous offenders. There have been two murders at the prison since 2014. In October 2017 riot officers were needed over a serious disturbance when 81 prisoners attacked staff with pool balls and forced them to retreat. In June 2018 there was a report that the prison’s governor needed hospital treatment and spent weeks off work after a prisoner had attacked her. On September 30, 2018, a disturbance broke out and 6 prison officers were injured, 3 had head injuries.
Ten years ago, my friend was wrongly convicted of murder and sentenced to a minimum tariff of 30 years imprisonment. Whenever I think of him, I can’t help but wonder how he manages to keep going. What is the point? What’s his reason to get out of his prison bed each and every morning?
He said that working on his appeal to overturn his conviction gives him hope that he will soon be free … ‘Being a lifer can be frustrating … It can eat into your mind and keep you awake if you let it.’
I asked him: ‘How do you get so muscular when you guys have such a poor diet and limited yard time?’ He said; ‘Most of us pump a lot of weights in our “free association time” when we can move around the common areas and socialise with each other… ‘the tension here is high and weak people don’t fare very well. So, most of the guys are pretty well stacked because it intimidates people when you look big; the inmates and especially the guards think you are fit and strong and won’t trouble you.’
I took a good look around the visiting hall and, yep, he was right! I could see that nearly all the inmates must try to get their body to a point where they are physically prepared for any eventuality, even a full-scale riot, as was the case only a few days before.
My friend was born to a Jewish heritage but converted to Islam while in prison. He said, ‘It gives me answers and focus – a guide for living, with clearly defined rules and regulations, a moral compass for a cleaner lifestyle. This is what is missing in a lot of prison inmates’ lives.’
Since his incarceration and new-found faith, he has become a much calmer man. All this in an environment where prisoners constantly look over their shoulder, always on edge. Visiting someone in a prison can be socially awkward, conversationally. During one visit I started to babble on about spirituality, my yoga practice and how I work to combat age-related change.
He said that a lot of Muslims associate yoga with either Hindus or Buddhists, believing them to be idol worshippers – making them incompatible with Islam. I responded by telling him yoga is not a threat to Islam because it draws on writings and philosophies from different religions in a search for peace and love – to get you closer to whoever your spirit or God is.
During subsequent visits. I got to thinking what it would be like to practise yoga in a cold cell on a concrete floor that makes you shiver. Add into the mix the noisy surroundings, with no respect for privacy.
Every time I visited, I kept asking myself how can someone accept the reality of the present moment, however painful, without trying to change – it is a crazy tall order in a prison full of murderers, drug dealers and paedophiles housed in a toxic, volatile and violent environment.
On one visit my friend said, ‘I do Savasana but find it hard letting go.’ I said; ‘A Category ‘A’ prison isn’t exactly the right place for someone to relax; but you can always create your own conditions in which relaxation is possible, wherever you are.’
Nine years ago, I taught a yoga class at COMO Shambhala Estate in Bali. At the time it was voted by Conde Nast Traveller magazine readers as the World’s Best Destination Spa. A fellow yoga teacher praised me for the guided meditation I had just delivered during Savasana. I smiled and said, ‘Thanks, I’ve had a lot of practice in noisy London gyms above busy roads. So, in these settings, guided meditation during Savasana is in a parallel universe.’
Last Word
I read a lot about people manifesting their greatest desires and asking the higher power for spiritual guidance. I also used to think that spirituality meant things like having a religion, practising yoga, becoming vegan/vegetarian, and reading books about self-development and spirituality. I now know that doing those things is not a sign of spirituality. If you choose to practise yoga, be vegan, follow Muhammad, God, Buddha or whoever you want, that’s fine – just do it honestly. Seeing the positive change in my friend’s conversion to Islam reinforced my own beliefs: that spirituality should enable you to be your authentic self and not be afraid of the judgment of others.
